Thursday, March 23, 2006 / Thursday, March 23, 2006
results r gonna be out tml.tml.tml.tml.n yes. tt marks my official dooms day.urgh.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006 / Tuesday, March 21, 2006
the trip was relaxing n shiok till i dread the tout abt returning home.
the endless shopping fer cheap stuff tt u can nv find in s'pore was exciting..
nice roadside food were heavenly.
the american breakfast buffet is like...=) esp the pancakes.
A&W as well as KFC seemed to be like the best fast food i ever eaten..
n yes...dunkin donuts were sooooooo yummy! n CHEAP.
gotten lots of bags n shoes till i gave a fright to myself as well as bb when we r packing hme.
had a hard time slping as usual..bt a gd time nuaing at the tv in the comfy bed.
the trip to erawan shrine was futile. esp when i have to face the bad yr ahead of me.
its scary to noe wad her dad said to her. i m still remaining calm though..
i've nv felt so relaxed fer so long..enjoyed the trip as well as the shopping.
nw back to s'pore. ya..starting wrk tml. n i wonder when's the next off day. eeeew.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006 / Wednesday, March 15, 2006
was late fer wrk yesterday n was supposed to do the opening..argh. 1 hr late la...haiz...was shocked to see my boss near closing today...n had a hard time building up my courage to tell him abt it..luckily he pardoned me..=) nw juz praying tt the management doesnt fine him on it..
the day passed quite fast today...at least nt tt 1 min=1 hr rate...this customer seemed to like me alot. she literally bought everything i asked her to..both yesterday n today...n the total she spent on is like $400 on these 2 days..connie almost gt shocked n died. hurr..juz gt to noe i hada wrk tml. cuz stocks are arriving n its gonna be hellish..heart nearly dropped..tout could rest after the 8 consecutive days there..bt it added up to be 9 instead..nw i hada give up the nice outing i m gonna have with wa n xuan tml..wad a day tt i hav been lookin forward to......mum's been irritating me non stop. cant stand it. cant i juz settle dwn dere to watch the tv...she juz hav to probe n probe..i mean..its nt like as though i dun wana tok to her..bt the qns she asked is ridiculous n nxt she starts nagging. i need peace. i dunno y.bt it seemed tt u made me wonder suddenly.hw've u been.flashbacks kept occuring.n it seriously bugs me.
Monday, March 13, 2006 / Monday, March 13, 2006
Aus aunt dropped by s'pore today...after which shes going to penang to find her friends..didnt realise my mum went out early to meet her larr..if nt i can hav lunch with them b4 going fer wrk...i was still late after all..haiz..anyway..mum told me she still look as youthful as the last time we saw her...abt 2 yrs back? glad to hear tt..she asked mum to go over aus with her...she wanted to pay fer all her expenses...hmm...to me..its her own sis after all..so i think its ok fer mum to accept it..mum loves travelling since young..was hopin fer her go over n relax esp after all the hard wrk she put in fer the family over the yrs..bt she rejected it instantly..was trying hard to persuade her..even suggested giving her money to go over to spend..getting advance pay frm my kind boss isnt tough after all..its actualli alrite if i hav to wrk harder in the nxt couple of mths..bt she doesnt understand. haiz..the trip to bangkok made me feel so bad after i learnt tt mum rejected her aus trip cuz she cant put the family down. smetimes.. i juz hope i can quit studying. wrk full time. save up. n bring her fer a trip. bt i noe its a silly thinkin bcuz i dun wana end up w/o a cert. frm a careless mistake i made abt entering JC..i had no choice bt to go poly..luckily..theres this course tt i m interested in.. well.. she appeared fine when i told her i m going with someone else's family. its like..'u r going on a trip with ur fren's family instead of ur own?' cuz she noes i will probably scold her fer being unreasonable if she comments on it. i guess its time to put myself in her shoes n pay more attention to her. if shes ever literate. hope she will read this. SORRY MUM. still...i m excited abt the trip..bt i cant deny the fact tt the matter is still troubling me..alot. plus the uncomfort when i am facing the folks tt seemed scary to me...i hav always been hoping everything sticks back to our original plan. obviously it will nt come true. i realli miss eileen...n the conversation we had abt the trip.juz told bb the idea of me opening up a bakery in the future..(with a tiny station tt sells unique chocolates frm overseas) since i m in the habit of eating bread fer 3 meals nowadays..n the conversation went FAR. she suggested a cafe..as she cant wrk in a place w/o alcohol, she cant bake. i suggested the cashier position fer her though..hurr..hmMm.. quite worried abt the in-hse consumption if she ever opens one.. haha..saw gal and elaine today at wrk..they juz came frm the bAoc meeting...gonna miss out this opportunity to earn the CCA pts due to my wrk schedule..haiz..was so entertained by gal..haha...STUPID ERENA. this was wad she did. --> was OBVIOUSLY holding pastamania drink.--> asked me to guess wad they had fer lunch..-__-
--> instantly turned over to hide her drink.. shes like sooo retarded. tts y i love her so much..wahaha..was havin nice heart to heart conversation with connie.. n i was mentionin tt i miss yumin..our ex colleague.. the nxt moment. she appeared. gosh... i cant believe tt loh..somemore i did nt hav a chance to bump into her..its so freaky like the last time me and poon were at queenstown stadium in the morn fer a jog..n we talked abt shi chang..den he appeared the next min.. i realli had goosebumps mann..its so unexpected to see familiar faces in a remote stadium..but anyway...was glad tt she's appealing fer SIM nw..n she looked so much like a human..haha..her hair is sooo much decent n proper..last time hada worry abt her cuz she was slackish in JC n rather skip all her classes to wrk n hang out till wee hrs..okie..shes still as loud..n she said smt like MOS-ing on 31/3..-__-leo was feelin dwn cuz of her wisdom tooth thingy..wah..the way she describe the pain...i can feel it ah...poor her...=( hopefully she will hav a speedy recovery...*wed eye candy! may he heal ur bitter eyes...as well as ur pain!i dun feel like going anywhr after wrk recently..dun even feel like meeting anyone..feels gd to be nua at hme afterall..the train of thoughts in my head in seriously bugging me.. yet i hav to pretend like as though nth is happening..
Saturday, March 11, 2006 / Saturday, March 11, 2006
was hme realli early juz nw..initially was supposed to go shin bar with colleagues..but was nt feeling well n didnt felt like going...went hme n zzzzzz all the way..it feels good to rest lidat...
woke up..
realised she's suffering shit at wrk again..urgh..wads new. haiz..but at the end of the day..i felt tt the comments shld nt be taken to heart cuz they aint worth it..i cant believe tt those irresponsible ppl leaving everything behind can still have the guts to find trouble with those loyal ones. wads the world coming to man..
hate to ask her wad happened..cuz it will make her think abt those irritating issues again..but since shes nt putting em dwn..so might as well..at least it can be lighter after sharing..felt relieved after the call i made to her..at least it forced out tt bit of laughter in her..
hope shes resting well nw..anyway...
WORMY BAO found my
black/white checkered lanyard! yipeee............! thanks alot worrr....*bao ah..does tt sound excited enuff...? heee
wa and long came to look fer me yesterday...gave me a shocking surprise..haha...she finally cut her hair...n shes no longer tt
fringe-less gal...hehe...
i love tt style of hers...much much much betta man...i wonder if shes coping fine without her
happy potter tail of hers...hahaha..but anyway...i give 2 thumbs up fer her new look!
tonning over at bao's place this coming wed..gonna be a rest-less night again...shall control abt the snacking part..hee..den meeting the gals on thurs...b4 my trip..i am so so so looking forward fer wed to come...urgh.
i wonder when will be the majong session at wa's place...cant wait xia..n her bday! hee...its coming...a big day hurr...a day tt officially starts adulthood..hmm..cant believe shes turning 18 b4 us...n shes gonna suan ppl again....
kind things juz cant get into my way..=( erena gal told me tt shes wrking at bugis seiyu larrr...i was so excited when i saw the 1st part of the sms..den realised its on 16-20...the days tt i am
NT wrking...oh gosh...tell me abt it mann...to think can knock off together...makan together...haha..the part tt she told me she hada eat with those aunties made me laugh like hell..keke..but hey...they are niceee ppl too wor........except when they dun start nagging larr....=) hope gal will cope fine over there...she seemed troubled over her dance too...hmmm..
i betta invent smething fast tt helps her nt to think abt those issues...i will i will...........
i have learnt to throw troubling matters aside.
hw abt u.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006 / Wednesday, March 08, 2006
gosh. i cant believe the bangkok trip is like arriving.everything's been settled. n i certainly hope i will put tt matter aside. its tiring upon the tout tt i will have to stay in the shop for the next 8 days. i hope stocks will come to keep me occupied. every min seemed like a day. n xiao long nus betta not irritate me....
had a great time chillin out with em earlier on. awaiting for 16/3 to come fer the next chill out. i guess i will work towards tt day ba...there isnt enough time fer me to indulge in my thoughts. will definitely take the next few days to do so.it still feels good to be lied to at times.n to be unaware of things.truth arent always the best.
esp when it makes u wonder.
Sunday, March 05, 2006 / Sunday, March 05, 2006
i m finally done with all the modules..
the poa paper seemed to be full of careless mistakes to me..but the tout tt i dun hava study till puke made me smile all the way.
went makan with erena n nixi at clementi after the paper. didnt hav much appetite..den proceeded to jurong pt fer some mini shopping session with erena..hee..as usual..had a hard laugh along the way..wahaha..n we finally gt our couple earrings...=p
it feels niceee chilling out with her esp after the days of studying n nt contacting much with each other... anyway...like to thank her sooooo much! realli appreciate tt effort of hers to confirm if i woke up on time fer exams nt...those calls were so sweet to me.
its juz the smallest thing tt makes a person's day. thanks gal. great to hav ya ard. =) i certainly hope i dun hav to wrk during e holidays..so we can go crazy n relax together..but i am glad u r understanding..oh yea..wait fer my gifts worrrr. kekeke.its been a bad yr.
he's realli jobless.
shes still nt contributing.
it feels tired being independent.
i wish to be like any other teenagers.tt harrassment tts reoccurring now is seriously killing me. i wonder y such psychotic guys exist. hes
forcing me to my limits.a small issue grew into a big one. n even caused so much
unhappiness n anger. n wads saddening. the screaming, n refusal to listen. n the tout tt i treat him like shit. which i DUN.
confused with all the diff kind of complicated issues. n i wonder y they
all came at a shot.
been ages since i caught up with tt few budz of mine.
missed their accompany n times we spent together..her. the sudden tout tt the friendship burst bcuz of wadever reason stabs me. i wonder hws she doin. perhaps she cant accept me fer whu i am. bt i am still the old me. well..the lib chillouts in the past r still my
best memories..
i
desire for more time to
stone. to
think. n to enjoy
peace.
